After determining last week that Apologia Biology was not going to work for Dawson, it was difficult to accept that Teaching Textbooks is probably not going to be the math curriculum for him, either. Last week he got stuck on simple one-step algabraic equations. By the end of this week he still didn't have it. He was frustrated and I was frustrated.
By Wednesday afternoon, I was defeated and wiped out. By Thursday I was feeling mentally worse. Dawson and Kyndal left at around noon to go with their dad on their annual trip. I was weary and I know Dawson was, too. I hadn't slept good all week, spending a lot of time worrying. This teaching a high school student is stressful stuff. And Apologia and Teaching Textbooks are used by everybody! I was so looking forward to him being able to use those two programs to work independently in science and math. And it's just not going to work that way.
Then this morning I realized some things:
- I have taken complete control of Dawson's schooling away from God. I've been trying to do it my own way (or better yet, everybody else's way) and am surprised that it's not working.
- I have forgotten that Dawson naturally learns in ways that are not the "norm", which is a big reason why I took him out of public school anyway.
- We are on a journey to excellence, not a journey to perfection, not a journey to straight A's, not a journey to honor student status, but a journey to his excellence!
- I know what works and I just need to stick with it.
I feel like we have been riding this wave of homeschool trends and self criticism and doubt for far too long, and I am exhausted from it.
We'll make the changes and move on. I'm ordering my new materials today.
With all that being said, and I know it was a lot, I will just leave you with our art project of the week. We studied Katsushika Hokusai and his painting "The Great Wave". He was an apprentice in a printing shop and used wood blocks and ink to make impressions on paper.
We attemped a similar project by making wave carvings into polystyrene. Being in my funk, I didn't read the instructions carefully, and we should have used one color of blue paint and used a sponge to apply it. I still think they turned out cool. And it was the technique we were more after anyway.
This week we did have a very successful week with the other basics, though, particularly grammar, reading, history, and writing. Brynne studied the state of Minnesota (which will be showcased in our Study America Saturday post tomorrow), and did some great Living Math (to be posted about on Monday). We decided not to try to cram in science this week, so will skip our U.S. States study next week and focus on science instead.
I am ever hopeful that things will be running more smoothly by the end of next week. In the meantime, check out other wrap-ups with Kris at Weird, Unsocialized Homeschoolers.